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Feet together,
Thighs apart,
how i mend my broken heart.

Breakfast skipped,
and dinner comes up,
pretending i don't give a fuck.

So cold,
so big,
water water, another swig.

Can't sleep at night,
can't face the day,
why won't ana go away?

Crying into bloody wrists,
Thinspo on my wall.
Pretty.
Skinny.
Tall.

But here i am again.
Here, my only friend.
Here, i face my silent end.

Thank you for trying.
I'm sorry. I tried.

I'm sorry.

I lied.
Thighs Apart
I'm going through a really rough times right now in my relapse. I've lost 15 pounds and I know I'm at a healthy weight but I can't stop wanting more. I eat one 500 calories a day and I throw up any extra. Sometimes I hate myself so much, I throw up the 500 too. I don't when I relapsed. All I know is she's back. And it hurts. I'm sorry if you understand some of these references. Stay Strong. 
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liz
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Update time! It has now been over a year since I created my first and only deviant art profile, Happy Anniversary!! Anyway, I am now 15 years old. My birthday is October 18 for those who didn't know. I made it through my first AP class with an A. Success! I don't have m learners permit yet. I also survived my first season as a marching indian, and believe me, that's an achievement. I still play the Alto Sax. I had to quit chorus for high school. I'm currently obsessed with Bo Burnham, and I'm still reading like paper and ink are my oxygen. NO E-readers! None!
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Alright deviants, I'm back, while I was gone, I got some really sweet happy birthdays, I hit 150 watchers, and I now have over 3,000 page views. WOW. I didn't expect so much to keep happening. I figured people would forget about me. It's nice to know I was still relevant to some degree. Anyway, while I was away, marching band season finished up ( we got third place at the Bands of America Regional Championships, Go Indians), my boyfriend was out of school for 7 weeks, but he's back now, and doing fine. I finished my first AP course of high school with an A, and I uh...... FINALLY GOT OUT OF MY MOMS HOUSE! That's right deviants, after eight years of living with two maniacs and 2 unpleasant, back stabbing, step siblings, I'm free =) and I'm soooooooooo much happier here at my Dad's house. I mean, actully, I think I'm truly happy for the first time....ever. And it feels great, deviants. It. Feels. Safe. =,)
  • Mood: Tired
  • Drinking: water

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1bookfish Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday, hun ^^
I hope you're doing well <3 
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killerlord123 Featured By Owner 4 days ago
Happy birthday :)
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artistic-heart13 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the fave; sorry for replying so late.
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lostmyslef Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
no problem!
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GingerTala Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014
thanks for the favourite ^^
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lostmyslef Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
no problem
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CaiBurton Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thankyou so much for the favourite!! :D
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lostmyslef Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
my pleasure!
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helakiv Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the fav!! I am a dummy! 
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lostmyslef Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
no problem!
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