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My MaskI put my mask on.
Time to face the day.
Time to plaster on a smile.
Time to pretend it's okay.

I want to crawl in bed.
Leave the world behind.
You're too ugly to go out,
whispers my mind.

I know I am,
I stifle a cry.
I want to leave,
I want to die.

My mask is done,
and I have to go.
Time to face the people.
Time to put on my show.

You didn't dare.She smiled,
but it was fake.
She laughed,
but she's about to break.

She reached out,
but no one came,
tried to fake it,
but the pain stayed the same.

This girl, she called to you,
but you didn't care.
Something told you to help,
but you didn't dare.

What would the others say?
The ones who called her a freak.
They may taunt or shun you,
so you choose not to speak.

Then she decides to leave.
Because no one wants her here.
You'll never see her cry.
She'll never shed another tear.

The DarknessThe darkness grabs,
it holds on tight.
I try to evade,
but I can't find the light.

Let me go!
I want to live,
but it does not tire.
It does not give.

I'm fading away,
can't find myself.
Someone, please!
Anyone, help.

But no one hears my cry.
The darkness smiles in glee.
As I've lost myself all together.
I will never be free.

1Go on,
Go.
I won't be your freak show.
It's not "funny,"
It's not "cool."
I'm just a girl,
Who didn't know you were so cruel.
I made a mistake,
I'm sorry to say.
I paid for my mistake,
Very dearly today.
You took who I was,
And you tore up my heart.
I'm broken and bent,
I'm falling apart.
The roof of my home,
Has just caved in.
It looks like you did it.
I guess you win

My SongThe music swirls all around,
till all I hear is the joyous sound,
twirling, spinning, moving me,
and the endless notes are all I see.

The beat becomes my hearts own.
I feel as though the light has shown,
and all the sadness fades away,
and I finally see a happier day.

My lips part, and I sing along
To such a redeeming, beautiful song.
These moments come and go too fast.
I enjoy them greatly as they last.

I laugh in glee.
I feel so free.
What magic is this,
this utter bliss?

Stay with me, my pretty song,
with you the days don't seem so long.
With you I am so filled with hope,
I know with you, somehow I'll cope.

Together we'll stay.
You'll

My smileMy smile was once so easy,
a thing of joy and pride,
but over these years of darkness,
the ease has slowly died.

I find it's no longer truth,
but simply a lying mask.
It hides away the misery,
the hauntings of my past.

I refuse to look at pictures.
I see what others ignore.
The uneasiness of my smile.
How it has turned into a chore.

Will I ever truly smile,
with joy, pride, and truth,
or will I never know a smile?
Will it die with the rest of my youth?

Please, i wish to laugh,
to smile without a care,
but I'm not good enough for this,
and I guess that is fair.

Are you blind?Are you blind to my misery,
Or do you choose not to look?
I want to share my story,
But you close me like a book.

I'm screaming as I cry,
But you refuse to hear.
Look away as I die,
Ignore each little tear.

Am I not loud enough?
Is that why you ignore my scream?
My life is tough,
Help me escape this bad dream.

I scream a bit higher.
Please, I need your help!
My circumstances are dire.
I'm losing myself.

But you do not help me,
And I've decided to give up.
Maybe then you'll see.
Ha! That's just my luck.

I'm fineYou say I don't understand you
and I probably don't

But how can I ever begin to understand
if you never tell me anything?

Are you okay?
I'm fine...

Really?

Are you?

How am I supposed to know
if you always tell me
what you think I want to hear

Tell me how everything is falling apart
how you hate everything
including yourself

including me

Just don't tell me lies

I can't help you
when all you show me
is a wall

I can't help you
unless you help me first

Help me understand
even if I never truly will

*Crystal Silence*Early hours, quiet world
Thoughts crystal clear in silence
All seems possible.

2013 Delice1941
4th March2013

I Met MeToday I met a girl,
and she asked, "How are you?"
"Just fine," I replied.
She said, "No, tell me what's true."

Perplexed, I stopped and stared.
She was young, no older than eight.
Her eyes were still innocent.
They knew no hate.

"What did you say?"
I asked in confusion.
"You know what I mean," she said.
This girl was in a delusion.

Trying to be kind,I replied,
"No I do not."
She frowned and replied,
"You lie quite a lot."

Now I was agitated.
What does this girl know?
Acting like she's so intelligent.
I'll just tell her to go.

"Let me explain!"
She exclaimed in haste.
"I know you're not alright.
I know you feel misplaced."

What?
How in

a friendShe cries,
But no one cares.
She laughs,
And everyone sneers.
I wish i could go on,
But this "she" is gone.
All she ever wanted was a friend,
But now her story had come to an end.

ClaireClear away the mistakes I've made.
Love me for who I am.
Accept me because
I am only me.
Remember all the times I've been there,
Even when I didn't want to be.

Love me.

CutsJust a tiny one. That's all I need

Reach for the blade

It's the only thing that helps

Take the pain away.

A little deeper now. Just this once

More and more

You crave it so

Farther, longer. I need it now

You're feeling weaker now

You're ready to leave yet.

Just one more

Congratulations

Now you're dead

Why?Why do I speak
when everyone would prefer quiet?
Why do I show my face
when everyone finds it appalling?
Why do I try
when everyone finds annoyance?
Why do I live
if everyone wants me dead?
I speak
so I can spread God's word.
I show my face
because God loves the sight.
I try hard
because God wills me to.
I live
because God gave me the gift to.

Smile, DarlingHey there.

Yes, you over there.

Has anyone told you lately that you look great?

Yes, with your morning hair. Your “chopstick” limbs. Those things you call fat. Your skin with all the blemishes which make you shine brighter. Your eyes which shine like the stars.

I want to say that you look beautiful, and that you shouldn’t worry about what you look like.

WHAT?

What do you mean you’re a terrible person?

Oh, is it because of the intense jealousy for those who have things you don’t have?
Or maybe because you feel immensely insecure of your wonderful self? Or maybe because you take out that anger and sadness o

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till all I hear is the joyous sound,
twirling, spinning, moving me,
and the endless notes are all I see.

The beat becomes my hearts own.
I feel as though the light has shown,
and all the sadness fades away,
and I finally see a happier day.

My lips part, and I sing along
To such a redeeming, beautiful song.
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I enjoy them greatly as they last.

I laugh in glee.
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Stay with me, my pretty song,
with you the days don't seem so long.
With you I am so filled with hope,
I know with you, somehow I'll cope.

Together we'll stay.
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Time To GoYou climbed all the way up,
just to fall so far down.
You're screaming in fear,
but no one hears a sound.

And as you fall into the dark,
that you fought so hard to ignore,
you begin to realize
this is what you've waited for.

As your heart goes cold,
and you no longer feel,
you smile just slightly,
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no more screams,
say good-bye
to all the bad dreams.

You'll be alone now,
what you've always wanted.
Your fears can no longer reach.
You'll never again be haunted.

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wraps you up tight.
Embrace the cold touch,
ignore all the light.

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this I know.
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And I cannot find the words
To correctly describe this curse.

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Smack my hands against the wall,
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Down my sanity goes.
I have to find a grip
Before this free fall comes to a close.

But I cannot find my voice.
The whispers tickle at my ears.
Is it finally going to end,
After all of these years?

Find a grip.
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Wish i could find the strength
To say good bye to my friend.

And a love that I'll miss.
One I was grateful for.
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a thing of joy and pride,
but over these years of darkness,
the ease has slowly died.

I find it's no longer truth,
but simply a lying mask.
It hides away the misery,
the hauntings of my past.

I refuse to look at pictures.
I see what others ignore.
The uneasiness of my smile.
How it has turned into a chore.

Will I ever truly smile,
with joy, pride, and truth,
or will I never know a smile?
Will it die with the rest of my youth?

Please, i wish to laugh,
to smile without a care,
but I'm not good enough for this,
and I guess that is fair.

Cold HeartedI'm tearing them down,
Piece by piece.
Let the walls fall,
Let the pain increase.

I stare my pain in the face,
Let it rip me a part.
Show what I've always feared,
In the depths of my cold heart.

I review my lack of care,
All the people that I've hurt.
When did I become so cold?
When did loved ones turn to dirt?

What happened to me?
Once so loving and kind.
When did it get so bad?
Did I suddenly lose my mind?

I want to trust again,
To love and to care,
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Is the cost of pain fair?

I realize that it's not.
I'm safe within my walls.
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Then to get hurt in the fall.

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I can't find the will to pretend.
I don't want to be your slave.
I just want this to end.

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the uncertainty of not knowing.
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My strength is slowly going.

Are you there for me?
Will you catch me when I fall?
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You don't answer my call.

Am I a fool to believe?
Is this all just a lie?
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Don't

by ~lostmyslef, Jan 26, 2013, 9:02:54 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Concrete Poetry

Don't tell me I'm beautiful.
When i feel disgusting.
Don't Tell me I'm lovely.
When my heart is rusting.

Don't talk to me.
I'm not worth it.
Don't encourage me.
Just let me quit.

Don't touch me.
I'm poison.
Don't wish for me.
I'm a prison.

Don't stay,
Please run.
I'm telling you.
Life with me is no fun.

Don'tby ~lostmyslef

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Concrete Poetry

©2013 ~lostmyslef

Just a quick one. Sorry if it's awful. I'm a little tired.

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~Lost--Destiny Jan 28, 2013 Student Digital Artist

Your words come in my heart and I make me don't fell alone.

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~lostmyslef Jan 28, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you, that's partially the purpose for all my poems, that and keeping myself from going insane

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`MagicalJoey Jan 28, 2013 Writer

The first stanza reminds me of how I feel about myself, but that's slowly changing.

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~lostmyslef Jan 28, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I hope so

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`MagicalJoey Jan 28, 2013 Writer

I hope so for you too.

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*jellybeansEVERYWHERE Jan 27, 2013

Heh I wrote something just like this yesterday.... I think it was
"Don't compliment me, I only disappoint"
I guess we all feel this way at one point or another ^~^

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~1bookfish Jan 26, 2013 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

... so relevant to my life right now... but you really are beautiful... I know you don't believe it... I know you don't believe a word I say... but it's true... I hope you believe it soon... you're amazing... I love you

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~lostmyslef Jan 27, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

You know me? Do you mean like actually?

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~1bookfish Jan 27, 2013 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

No, I don't know you, but I can tell... I know it's kinda weird, but hey, I like to believe that everyone's beautiful in some way or another, and even if you aren't what society/media thinks is "beautiful" (but who is, it's impossible to achieve), you are beautiful on the inside, and that's what really matters. And yes, I mean it

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~lostmyslef Jan 27, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

aww, well thank you

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