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You didn't dare.She smiled,
but it was fake.
She laughed,
but she's about to break.

She reached out,
but no one came,
tried to fake it,
but the pain stayed the same.

This girl, she called to you,
but you didn't care.
Something told you to help,
but you didn't dare.

What would the others say?
The ones who called her a freak.
They may taunt or shun you,
so you choose not to speak.

Then she decides to leave.
Because no one wants her here.
You'll never see her cry.
She'll never shed another tear.

House of MirrorsThey say I spin
a web of lies,
but webs are for spiders.
They catch their flies.

No, my lies are mirrors,
each a different reflection.
They fill up my house,
my sinful collection.

Sometimes I get lost.
There's so much confusion.
Which ones are real?
Which are illusions?

I try to back track,
but the mirrors turn me around.
I cry out for help,
but the mirrors block the sound.

I give up.
Hang another mirror.
In this one I'm cruel and cold
on the exterior.

How many reflections
will I become?
Which one is real?
Where have I gone?

Train to NowhereI'm on a train,
going nowhere,
Can't see through the rain,
I try not to care.

It's moving too fast,
but how do i slow?
Am I running from my past,
or just eager to go?

I know I should stop,
try to get a grip,
but this train is on lock,
and my sanity begins to slip.

Would it be so bad to ride,
to let this train go on?
We all know that I lied,
that I'm too far gone.

I can never be me,
no matter how I try.
Can't you see?
This has all been a lie.

So I'll sit and relax,
let the train run.
Maybe the train will crash.
Wouldn't that be fun?

My MonstersI can't breathe.
It's too tight.
I hear so many things,
can't trust my sight.

The monsters surround.
No, they're not really here.
They reach out to grab me.
They smell my fear.

Have I finally lost my mind?
Am I totally insane?
Is this all in my head?
Is it just a sick game?

Or are they really there?
Do they smile as I scream?
Do they laugh at my tears?
Please, let this be a dream.

But it's not a dream.
I can't get out.
A hand surrounds my neck,
no air to shout.

Tears stream freely.
They start to close in.
I pray to god to help me,
to forgive all my sin.

The world starts to fade.
I can no longer see.
I smile in bliss.
I'm finally free.

I Met MeToday I met a girl,
and she asked, "How are you?"
"Just fine," I replied.
She said, "No, tell me what's true."

Perplexed, I stopped and stared.
She was young, no older than eight.
Her eyes were still innocent.
They knew no hate.

"What did you say?"
I asked in confusion.
"You know what I mean," she said.
This girl was in a delusion.

Trying to be kind,I replied,
"No I do not."
She frowned and replied,
"You lie quite a lot."

Now I was agitated.
What does this girl know?
Acting like she's so intelligent.
I'll just tell her to go.

"Let me explain!"
She exclaimed in haste.
"I know you're not alright.
I know you feel misplaced."

What?
How in

My SongThe music swirls all around,
till all I hear is the joyous sound,
twirling, spinning, moving me,
and the endless notes are all I see.

The beat becomes my hearts own.
I feel as though the light has shown,
and all the sadness fades away,
and I finally see a happier day.

My lips part, and I sing along
To such a redeeming, beautiful song.
These moments come and go too fast.
I enjoy them greatly as they last.

I laugh in glee.
I feel so free.
What magic is this,
this utter bliss?

Stay with me, my pretty song,
with you the days don't seem so long.
With you I am so filled with hope,
I know with you, somehow I'll cope.

Together we'll stay.
You'll

The DreamThe smile makes me shiver.
Cold runs down my spine.
I know what he wants,
wants to take what's mine.

But I won't let him.
No, now this is my story.
I will be the victor.
He can't have the glory.

He lurches forward,
but I knew he would.
I remember everything now.
I do what I should.

I jump to the side,
run for the door.
I smile at the "thump"
as he hits the floor.

I've nearly reached the handle,
suddenly I feel his hand.
No, I have to keep trying,
but I don't understand.

Why am I fighting?
He would never hurt me.
I let go of the handle,
turn around easily.

He smiles once more,
something tells me to run,
but why would I leave him?
We alwa

Time To GoYou climbed all the way up,
just to fall so far down.
You're screaming in fear,
but no one hears a sound.

And as you fall into the dark,
that you fought so hard to ignore,
you begin to realize
this is what you've waited for.

As your heart goes cold,
and you no longer feel,
you smile just slightly,
hope this is real.

No more fighting,
no more screams,
say good-bye
to all the bad dreams.

You'll be alone now,
what you've always wanted.
Your fears can no longer reach.
You'll never again be haunted.

So smile as the darkness
wraps you up tight.
Embrace the cold touch,
ignore all the light.

You'll be happier here,
this I know.
Soon I'll join y

Are you blind?Are you blind to my misery,
Or do you choose not to look?
I want to share my story,
But you close me like a book.

I'm screaming as I cry,
But you refuse to hear.
Look away as I die,
Ignore each little tear.

Am I not loud enough?
Is that why you ignore my scream?
My life is tough,
Help me escape this bad dream.

I scream a bit higher.
Please, I need your help!
My circumstances are dire.
I'm losing myself.

But you do not help me,
And I've decided to give up.
Maybe then you'll see.
Ha! That's just my luck.

Don'tDon't tell me I'm beautiful.
When i feel disgusting.
Don't Tell me I'm lovely.
When my heart is rusting.

Don't talk to me.
I'm not worth it.
Don't encourage me.
Just let me quit.

Don't touch me.
I'm poison.
Don't wish for me.
I'm a prison.

Don't stay,
Please run.
I'm telling you.
Life with me is no fun.

Won't Give InI'm getting weak,
can't find the light.
Too tired to try,
Too tired to fight.

I want to give in,
let my grip slip,
start the fall,
let myself trip.

But I can't let go.
I need to stay here.
Despite all the hardships,
despite all my fear.

I'll keep going.
I won't give in.
Though I feel like dying,
though my chances are grim.

So say hello to me,
this act I put on,
till my time comes,
till God says I'm done.

Why?Why do I speak
when everyone would prefer quiet?
Why do I show my face
when everyone finds it appalling?
Why do I try
when everyone finds annoyance?
Why do I live
if everyone wants me dead?
I speak
so I can spread God's word.
I show my face
because God loves the sight.
I try hard
because God wills me to.
I live
because God gave me the gift to.

My voice?I tried to smile,
laugh through the pain,
but it's been a while,
I think I'm insane.

I can't hear my own voice.
The one that says what I want.
Now I have no choice.
You never did, it taunts.

It tells me what I should say.
It tells me who I am.
It tells me everyday.
Am I the lion or the lamb?

Am I as weak as I feel,
or as strong as I pretend?
Am I cold and hard as steel,
or just waiting for it to end?

Who am I?
Do I really want to know?
I end with a sigh.
The voice is telling me to go.

Your Light, My FearThe walls are starting to cave.
I can't find the will to pretend.
I don't want to be your slave.
I just want this to end.

I can't take the fear,
the uncertainty of not knowing.
Can't you see, dear?
My strength is slowly going.

Are you there for me?
Will you catch me when I fall?
Because you don't seem to see.
You don't answer my call.

Am I a fool to believe?
Is this all just a lie?
Are you just waiting to leave?
Don't care if I die.

I wish I could run,
but i can't find the will.
I pick up the gun,
but find little urge to kill.

So I'll stay here,
no need to fight.
Ignore my fear,
focus on your light.

My smileMy smile was once so easy,
a thing of joy and pride,
but over these years of darkness,
the ease has slowly died.

I find it's no longer truth,
but simply a lying mask.
It hides away the misery,
the hauntings of my past.

I refuse to look at pictures.
I see what others ignore.
The uneasiness of my smile.
How it has turned into a chore.

Will I ever truly smile,
with joy, pride, and truth,
or will I never know a smile?
Will it die with the rest of my youth?

Please, i wish to laugh,
to smile without a care,
but I'm not good enough for this,
and I guess that is fair.

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Simple JoysI woke to find one day,
the fire did not warm,
the water did not quench,
and the breeze did not cool.
I prayed to god and asked why.
Why could i not have these simple joys?
God said, my dear child,
you ask why the fire does not warm,
and the water does not quench,
but i assure they do!
It is you that will not be warmed
or quenched.
Let me in,
and i promise the joys will come,
for i am all the joys and more.

a friendShe cries,
But no one cares.
She laughs,
And everyone sneers.
I wish i could go on,
But this "she" is gone.
All she ever wanted was a friend,
But now her story had come to an end.

JokeTell us a joke,
Tell us a joke.
What if there is no joke to tell?
What if the world is at an end,
And laughter is no longer our friend?
What if the world is in such gloom
That smiles have been sent to doom?
What if the blackness is so great
That smiles have seen their due date?
What if the jokes to tell
Can no longer be told?

GodI am not invisible,
For God can see.
I am not unspoken,
For God can hear.
I am not unloved,
For God loves me,
And I am not alone
Because God is always there.

Tick TockTick tock,
goes the clock,
ticking life's time away.

Tick tock,
goes the clock,
every second of every day.

Tick tock,
tomorrow's coming.

Tick tock,
then it's time.

Tick tock,
your time to go.

Tick tock,
you're gone.

I wish I may...Hopes.
Dreams.
Everything in between.
seem so far away,
wish i could catch them,
tie them up,
make them stay,
I wish I may,
I wish I might,
everyday, everynight,
but never do i see the sight.

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My Mask

by ~lostmyslef, Jan 28, 2013, 4:30:51 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Concrete Poetry

I put my mask on.
Time to face the day.
Time to plaster on a smile.
Time to pretend it's okay.

I want to crawl in bed.
Leave the world behind.
You're too ugly to go out,
whispers my mind.

I know I am,
I stifle a cry.
I want to leave,
I want to die.

My mask is done,
and I have to go.
Time to face the people.
Time to put on my show.

My Maskby ~lostmyslef

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Concrete Poetry

I'm actually getting ready for school while I'm writing this. The first line popped into my head while I was doing my eyeliner.

*angelenroute Jan 29, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Life's too short and the people you see in school these days will be hardly remembered once your real life starts, so make the most of this special time. Enjoy this life and don't let other people affect how you enjoy YOUR life!

~lostmyslef Jan 29, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

thanks

`MagicalJoey Jan 28, 2013 Writer

The question comes up, why are you masking? Are you masking emotions, making a blank face of 'fine', or are you masking yourself because you think you're ugly, or both?

~lostmyslef Jan 28, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Both, I multimask.

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~tommyboywood Jan 28, 2013 Professional Writer

nice rhymes. ugliness, of course is a prejudice, a fantasy, not a reality. but you already knew that

~lostmyslef Jan 28, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thanks

~WriterFlyProductions Jan 28, 2013

Very good. I like it

~lostmyslef Jan 28, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you

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