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My MaskI put my mask on.
Time to face the day.
Time to plaster on a smile.
Time to pretend it's okay.

I want to crawl in bed.
Leave the world behind.
You're too ugly to go out,
whispers my mind.

I know I am,
I stifle a cry.
I want to leave,
I want to die.

My mask is done,
and I have to go.
Time to face the people.
Time to put on my show.

Why?Why do I speak
when everyone would prefer quiet?
Why do I show my face
when everyone finds it appalling?
Why do I try
when everyone finds annoyance?
Why do I live
if everyone wants me dead?
I speak
so I can spread God's word.
I show my face
because God loves the sight.
I try hard
because God wills me to.
I live
because God gave me the gift to.

My SongThe music swirls all around,
till all I hear is the joyous sound,
twirling, spinning, moving me,
and the endless notes are all I see.

The beat becomes my hearts own.
I feel as though the light has shown,
and all the sadness fades away,
and I finally see a happier day.

My lips part, and I sing along
To such a redeeming, beautiful song.
These moments come and go too fast.
I enjoy them greatly as they last.

I laugh in glee.
I feel so free.
What magic is this,
this utter bliss?

Stay with me, my pretty song,
with you the days don't seem so long.
With you I am so filled with hope,
I know with you, somehow I'll cope.

Together we'll stay.
You'll

My smileMy smile was once so easy,
a thing of joy and pride,
but over these years of darkness,
the ease has slowly died.

I find it's no longer truth,
but simply a lying mask.
It hides away the misery,
the hauntings of my past.

I refuse to look at pictures.
I see what others ignore.
The uneasiness of my smile.
How it has turned into a chore.

Will I ever truly smile,
with joy, pride, and truth,
or will I never know a smile?
Will it die with the rest of my youth?

Please, i wish to laugh,
to smile without a care,
but I'm not good enough for this,
and I guess that is fair.

You didn't dare.She smiled,
but it was fake.
She laughed,
but she's about to break.

She reached out,
but no one came,
tried to fake it,
but the pain stayed the same.

This girl, she called to you,
but you didn't care.
Something told you to help,
but you didn't dare.

What would the others say?
The ones who called her a freak.
They may taunt or shun you,
so you choose not to speak.

Then she decides to leave.
Because no one wants her here.
You'll never see her cry.
She'll never shed another tear.

1Go on,
Go.
I won't be your freak show.
It's not "funny,"
It's not "cool."
I'm just a girl,
Who didn't know you were so cruel.
I made a mistake,
I'm sorry to say.
I paid for my mistake,
Very dearly today.
You took who I was,
And you tore up my heart.
I'm broken and bent,
I'm falling apart.
The roof of my home,
Has just caved in.
It looks like you did it.
I guess you win

Butterfly ScreamsIt's fun,
Isn't it?
Hurting me?
Killing me?
Watching me bleed?

Mocking me?
Striking me?
Ignoring my needs?

Destroying who I am,
And all I'll ever be.

But you wouldn't stop,
That I can see.

The butterflies in my stomach,
Scream as the hurtful words
Pin them to corkboard.
I'll cut myself,
And bleed.
I'm gonna lay down,
And hear the butterflies scream.

"Don't even worry."
"I'm perfectly fine."
Words are sandpaper,
And a couple of lies.

So while I'm here,
Down on the floor;
Do your worst,
Your worst and more.

So I'll lay down,
And bleed.
Even when I'm gone,
The butterflies will still scream.

My ''Friend''Can't wait to take my place,
Can't wait for me to be erased,
Can't wait for when I fall,
You're going to steal it all.

Call me a friend,
But you're really a foe.
I smile and say yes,
But inside I scream no.

Call my name,
I won't answer.
I've lost myself,
To the greed and the cancer.

It contaminated my cells,
Poisoned my body.
My guard was down,
My protection shoddy.

Break me down,
But already you have.
Inside and out,
I've been given a bath.

A bath in acid,
With some drops of your blood,
I sit in the filth,
The dirtiest mud.

I have no choice;
I'm so confused.
One question to answer:
Have I been used?

Farewell to MeI search for the light,
but find only death,
can't find a way out,
can't catch my breath.

Will anyone come to help,
save me from this place?
No. No one will come.
I don't deserve their grace.

I will sit in misery,
drowning with each tear.
Day after day.
Year after year.

I used to hope,
think someone would help,
take me from here,
and I'd find myself.

But this is my fate.
I'll never be free.
This is my end,
my farewell to me.

Secret WordsI know you need help.
It's so plain to see.
Please don't hurt yourself.
You can count on me.

I'll hold you when it's tough,
wrap you up tight.
I know life is rough,
but I'll be your light.

I love you, I do.
You're everything to me.
you don't believe it's true,
but I want to set you free.

I'll be your rock
when all your strength is gone.
I'll be your lock
when everythings gone wrong.

So please don't cry,
my love, my life.
I know you want to die,
but I'll help you through the strife.

Because I'll be there to catch you
when everything falls apart.
I love you, it's so true,
with all of my heart.

My Immortal FriendWhere are you,
my sweetest friend?
When did our friendship
come to an end?

I don't remember much,
but I know you're there.
I can feel your presence,
heavy in the air.

My immortal soul,
you should be gone.
Your heart stopped beating.
Your time is done.

And yet you stay,
unseen but not unknown.
Do you still recognize me?
I know I've grown.

Were you always here,
or did you just come back?
Why can't I see you?
Is there something I lack?

He sees you though.
I know it's true.
His innocent eyes
always pointed towards you.

Are you his friend now?
What happened to me?
Did we have a fight?
Just let me see.

I don't understand.
What went wrong?
W

Train to NowhereI'm on a train,
going nowhere,
Can't see through the rain,
I try not to care.

It's moving too fast,
but how do i slow?
Am I running from my past,
or just eager to go?

I know I should stop,
try to get a grip,
but this train is on lock,
and my sanity begins to slip.

Would it be so bad to ride,
to let this train go on?
We all know that I lied,
that I'm too far gone.

I can never be me,
no matter how I try.
Can't you see?
This has all been a lie.

So I'll sit and relax,
let the train run.
Maybe the train will crash.
Wouldn't that be fun?

The MonsterI can't trust;
I can't love you.
The monster,
It's overpowering.
I'm not strong enough;
It has invaded me.
Every organ,
Every cell,
Every molecule,
Has been destroyed,
And taken over by something that isn't human.

It has to be something else;
It has to.
I wouldn't cut myself.
I wouldn't hate myself,
Or starve myself,
Or lose myself in a sea of hatred,
Of bloodlust,
And sorrow.
Would I?

Lo, How She Lie, Still and BrokenI'm trying so hard to get better,
So hard to be strong.
I'm trying so hard to keep smiling,
So hard to go on.
But I'm getting tired,
This happiness drains me.
The walls are closing in,
It's getting hard to breath.
My conciousness,
Goes in and out.
The room goes black and white.
I can't take much more of this,
I think I've lost my sight.

Moral of the story:

You can't do it all,
Because no matter what you say or do,
Even the mighty fall.

I Will Trust In YouForgive me, Father,
For I have sinned.
Where I am is horrible.
What a dreadful mess I'm in.
I'm a sinful, wretched thing.
I'm on the floor,
With nothing.
I've forgotten what you made me, Lord;
Please help me find her again.
I really, truly need her, Lord;
She was my only friend.
Oh Heavenly Father,
I'm down here on my knees.
I'm begging,
And crying.
Lord, I'm praying,
Please.
Take my sin away from me.
I want to live,
For you only.
I've let you in my heart,
So one day we WILL meet.
I promise to you, Lord,
I'll only ask you to guide my footsteps,
If I move my feet.

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My Monsters

by ~lostmyslef, Feb 1, 2013, 6:34:47 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Concrete Poetry

I can't breathe.
It's too tight.
I hear so many things,
can't trust my sight.

The monsters surround.
No, they're not really here.
They reach out to grab me.
They smell my fear.

Have I finally lost my mind?
Am I totally insane?
Is this all in my head?
Is it just a sick game?

Or are they really there?
Do they smile as I scream?
Do they laugh at my tears?
Please, let this be a dream.

But it's not a dream.
I can't get out.
A hand surrounds my neck,
no air to shout.

Tears stream freely.
They start to close in.
I pray to god to help me,
to forgive all my sin.

The world starts to fade.
I can no longer see.
I smile in bliss.
I'm finally free.

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This is a poem I wrote in social studies class when I should have been paying attention....... o well......

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~TrappedWithinMyMind Feb 7, 2013 Hobbyist General Artist

_{I really like this}

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~lostmyslef Feb 7, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I'm glad

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`MagicalJoey Feb 3, 2013 Writer

I like how the monsters can reflect depression, Schizophrenia or even a combination of mental illnesses.

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~lostmyslef Feb 3, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

thanks

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~HippoStylist Feb 2, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

the awkward moment when you sing this as you read it and find out its a poem... I really need a hobby.

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~lostmyslef Feb 2, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Lol!

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~HippoStylist Feb 2, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Seriously, I have a problem

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~lostmyslef Feb 2, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

o, it's ok. I do it all the time. only i assume songs are poems

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~HippoStylist Feb 2, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

We're just like eachother... Only different! 0.0

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~lostmyslef Feb 2, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

o. m. g. 0.o

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