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My MaskI put my mask on.
Time to face the day.
Time to plaster on a smile.
Time to pretend it's okay.

I want to crawl in bed.
Leave the world behind.
You're too ugly to go out,
whispers my mind.

I know I am,
I stifle a cry.
I want to leave,
I want to die.

My mask is done,
and I have to go.
Time to face the people.
Time to put on my show.

My SongThe music swirls all around,
till all I hear is the joyous sound,
twirling, spinning, moving me,
and the endless notes are all I see.

The beat becomes my hearts own.
I feel as though the light has shown,
and all the sadness fades away,
and I finally see a happier day.

My lips part, and I sing along
To such a redeeming, beautiful song.
These moments come and go too fast.
I enjoy them greatly as they last.

I laugh in glee.
I feel so free.
What magic is this,
this utter bliss?

Stay with me, my pretty song,
with you the days don't seem so long.
With you I am so filled with hope,
I know with you, somehow I'll cope.

Together we'll stay.
You'll

My MonstersI can't breathe.
It's too tight.
I hear so many things,
can't trust my sight.

The monsters surround.
No, they're not really here.
They reach out to grab me.
They smell my fear.

Have I finally lost my mind?
Am I totally insane?
Is this all in my head?
Is it just a sick game?

Or are they really there?
Do they smile as I scream?
Do they laugh at my tears?
Please, let this be a dream.

But it's not a dream.
I can't get out.
A hand surrounds my neck,
no air to shout.

Tears stream freely.
They start to close in.
I pray to god to help me,
to forgive all my sin.

The world starts to fade.
I can no longer see.
I smile in bliss.
I'm finally free.

Time To GoYou climbed all the way up,
just to fall so far down.
You're screaming in fear,
but no one hears a sound.

And as you fall into the dark,
that you fought so hard to ignore,
you begin to realize
this is what you've waited for.

As your heart goes cold,
and you no longer feel,
you smile just slightly,
hope this is real.

No more fighting,
no more screams,
say good-bye
to all the bad dreams.

You'll be alone now,
what you've always wanted.
Your fears can no longer reach.
You'll never again be haunted.

So smile as the darkness
wraps you up tight.
Embrace the cold touch,
ignore all the light.

You'll be happier here,
this I know.
Soon I'll join y

TightropeI don't look down,
don't look back,
ignore the chills
all down my back.

I can feel their arms,
steady at my sides,
my truest hopes,
my loving guides.

They keep me on track,
no need for fear.
I've got them for comfort,
my friends so dear.

But sometimes one fades,
their arms tired and annoyed,
and I'll start to slip,
my balance destroyed.

I need them both,
or surely I'll go,
down down down,
ruining the show.

As long as I have them,
I'll keep going on,
until I figure this out,
until the tightrope is gone.

The DreamThe smile makes me shiver.
Cold runs down my spine.
I know what he wants,
wants to take what's mine.

But I won't let him.
No, now this is my story.
I will be the victor.
He can't have the glory.

He lurches forward,
but I knew he would.
I remember everything now.
I do what I should.

I jump to the side,
run for the door.
I smile at the "thump"
as he hits the floor.

I've nearly reached the handle,
suddenly I feel his hand.
No, I have to keep trying,
but I don't understand.

Why am I fighting?
He would never hurt me.
I let go of the handle,
turn around easily.

He smiles once more,
something tells me to run,
but why would I leave him?
We alwa

Your Light, My FearThe walls are starting to cave.
I can't find the will to pretend.
I don't want to be your slave.
I just want this to end.

I can't take the fear,
the uncertainty of not knowing.
Can't you see, dear?
My strength is slowly going.

Are you there for me?
Will you catch me when I fall?
Because you don't seem to see.
You don't answer my call.

Am I a fool to believe?
Is this all just a lie?
Are you just waiting to leave?
Don't care if I die.

I wish I could run,
but i can't find the will.
I pick up the gun,
but find little urge to kill.

So I'll stay here,
no need to fight.
Ignore my fear,
focus on your light.

Train to NowhereI'm on a train,
going nowhere,
Can't see through the rain,
I try not to care.

It's moving too fast,
but how do i slow?
Am I running from my past,
or just eager to go?

I know I should stop,
try to get a grip,
but this train is on lock,
and my sanity begins to slip.

Would it be so bad to ride,
to let this train go on?
We all know that I lied,
that I'm too far gone.

I can never be me,
no matter how I try.
Can't you see?
This has all been a lie.

So I'll sit and relax,
let the train run.
Maybe the train will crash.
Wouldn't that be fun?

Secret WordsI know you need help.
It's so plain to see.
Please don't hurt yourself.
You can count on me.

I'll hold you when it's tough,
wrap you up tight.
I know life is rough,
but I'll be your light.

I love you, I do.
You're everything to me.
you don't believe it's true,
but I want to set you free.

I'll be your rock
when all your strength is gone.
I'll be your lock
when everythings gone wrong.

So please don't cry,
my love, my life.
I know you want to die,
but I'll help you through the strife.

Because I'll be there to catch you
when everything falls apart.
I love you, it's so true,
with all of my heart.

With YouHold me tight,
Please don't go.
I'm falling apart,
falling down so low.

Like a rag doll I'm tearing,
seams falling apart.
I can't sew them back up,
wouldn't know where to start.

I need your help,
but I'm too scared to say,
too scared to reach out,
tell you to stay.

You're my only hope,
like it or not.
My chances are slim,
but I'll give it a shot.

So hold me up,
don't let me fall,
just tell me it's okay,
answer my call.

That's all you need to do,
and I'll be alright.
With you by my side,
I'll stand up and fight.

My smileMy smile was once so easy,
a thing of joy and pride,
but over these years of darkness,
the ease has slowly died.

I find it's no longer truth,
but simply a lying mask.
It hides away the misery,
the hauntings of my past.

I refuse to look at pictures.
I see what others ignore.
The uneasiness of my smile.
How it has turned into a chore.

Will I ever truly smile,
with joy, pride, and truth,
or will I never know a smile?
Will it die with the rest of my youth?

Please, i wish to laugh,
to smile without a care,
but I'm not good enough for this,
and I guess that is fair.

Little StarYou think you're the star,
Flying way up high.
Nothing can touch you.
You own the sky.

Your colors are bright,
no one shines brighter.
You're number one....
till you go a bit higher.

Farther in the sky,
there are stars that shine true,
and you cannot compare.
You're just little old you.

Those stars are huge.
You'll never compare.
Don't even try.
Don't even dare.

You're small and weak.
They're big and strong.
Your shine is meek,
and theirs is long.

So just give up.
There's nothing to do.
You're not good enough,
yes, it's true.

Wait, no.
It's not true at all.
Those stars may be big,
but keep standing tall.

You're a star too,
no matter th

You didn't dare.She smiled,
but it was fake.
She laughed,
but she's about to break.

She reached out,
but no one came,
tried to fake it,
but the pain stayed the same.

This girl, she called to you,
but you didn't care.
Something told you to help,
but you didn't dare.

What would the others say?
The ones who called her a freak.
They may taunt or shun you,
so you choose not to speak.

Then she decides to leave.
Because no one wants her here.
You'll never see her cry.
She'll never shed another tear.

Adventure TimeOnly thirteen,
so is she,
pretty as a flower,
a flame burning free.

Only thirteen,
but she is not,
sweet as candy,
She's sticky and I'm caught.

A choice to make,
and difficult too.
Settle for what's easy,
or fight for love so true?

On top of that there's her.
She's different and dark,
with a soul of ice,
and teeth like a shark.

Who will be mine?
The one of fire,
so beautiful and free,
awakening desire?

Or will it be her,
candy so sweet,
and knowledge so vast,
makes my heart beat fast.

Maybe the dark one,
with the adventure of her own,
but she's cold and guarded,
loves never been shown.

Maybe it won't be any,
forever me and Jake,
in lov

Won't Give InI'm getting weak,
can't find the light.
Too tired to try,
Too tired to fight.

I want to give in,
let my grip slip,
start the fall,
let myself trip.

But I can't let go.
I need to stay here.
Despite all the hardships,
despite all my fear.

I'll keep going.
I won't give in.
Though I feel like dying,
though my chances are grim.

So say hello to me,
this act I put on,
till my time comes,
till God says I'm done.

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Sweet sweet DreamMy days are dark,
filled with fear.
They have been this way.
Year after year.

Since the day he came,
and took her with him.
The innocent me that was.
so now my days are grim.

I can find no hope,
it is gone.
I hide myself away.
I'll never see the sun.

Don't look for me.
I'm hidden away.
I won't come out,
won't see another day.

I like it like this.
I can't be seen.
It's a beautiful nightmare,
a sweet sweet dream.

Carry onShe can hit me,
but I won't cry out.
I'm too numb to fight,
too tired to shout.

I just want to rest.
To stop all the tears.
I'm tired of trying.
Exhausted by all these years.

Leave me alone.
I'm nothing anymore.
Just an empty shell,
That's not worth crying for.

Don't call my name.
I don't exist.
She's weathered me away.
With word and fist.

I'll stop now.
You don't care.
I'm just a girl.
Caught in suicide's snare.

From now on,
I won't speak,
I won't try.
I won't be a freak.

I'll just fade.
slowly, till I'm gone.
So I won't be a bother.
So your life can carry on.

The DarknessThe darkness grabs,
it holds on tight.
I try to evade,
but I can't find the light.

Let me go!
I want to live,
but it does not tire.
It does not give.

I'm fading away,
can't find myself.
Someone, please!
Anyone, help.

But no one hears my cry.
The darkness smiles in glee.
As I've lost myself all together.
I will never be free.

Don'tDon't tell me I'm beautiful.
When i feel disgusting.
Don't Tell me I'm lovely.
When my heart is rusting.

Don't talk to me.
I'm not worth it.
Don't encourage me.
Just let me quit.

Don't touch me.
I'm poison.
Don't wish for me.
I'm a prison.

Don't stay,
Please run.
I'm telling you.
Life with me is no fun.

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Why?

by ~lostmyslef, Jan 18, 2013, 12:24:02 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Why do I speak
when everyone would prefer quiet?
Why do I show my face
when everyone finds it appalling?
Why do I try
when everyone finds annoyance?
Why do I live
if everyone wants me dead?
I speak
so I can spread God's word.
I show my face
because God loves the sight.
I try hard
because God wills me to.
I live
because God gave me the gift to.